June 1, 2015, Author: wordvendor,

That’s what makes this so difficult?

So if I get hired to do a job, then I have every right to be upset if I’m not compensated for it. But with any artistic endeavor, it’s like choosing to do a job that no one ever asked you to do in the first place – at least in the beginning, anyway. So it’s a stretch to be upset if nothing comes from it.

So I try to remind myself why I started doing all this to begin with. Because it wasn’t for the attention, or for any label to hire me, or even for the chicks back then – all that came later. I mean, expecting all that, anyway. But that was after my ego high jacked the whole thing and I’ve been negotiating for hostages ever since.

But I remember it now, just sittin’ out on the curb with my guitar when I was a kid – just coming up with stuff and expressing myself because it felt good. And then maybe I’d hear something from somewhere else once and a while and it felt even better adding that in. But I did it because I liked doing it, and that was it. And it felt good trying to do it better the next time, too.

So it’s nice getting back to this place. I mean, my ego still threatens to blow the whole thing up once in a while, but that just means I’m on to something.

3 Responses to That’s what makes this so difficult?

  1. Billy Cioffi says:

    You done good writer man!

  2. Hertin says:

    I see Mom was up early again. This almost made me cry. Katharine you loekod beautiful. Can’t wait to meet Claude. Wish we could have shared the day with you both. An awesome day. Congratulations again.

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